I mean, if I’m being real, gaining forty pounds has been miserable and emotionally draining and has made my current body feel alien and unusual and foreign to me because I was underweight for years.
However, even though I’ve gained a fuckton of weight, and I honestly am disgusted with my body, I…
Here’s the deal. You’re not going to feel like you’re thin or sick enough. You’re just not, that’s the nature of this illness. But one day, you’ll realize you were. One day you’ll know the truth.
But you can’t get there if you don’t decide that you’re going to take a leap of faith and eat and get better, even while you feel like you weren’t sick enough. It’s gotta be done.Just do it. (I sent this to someone but I feel like it’s really universally applicable.)